haha. i guess i really should stop emo-ing here, and just emo-ing to myself in my locked up livejournal.should spare you all from A HUGE LOADS of emo-ing in this blog..haha.but anw. ill talk about today, and leave out the bits i wish to forget. or the extra parts to anything i wish to forget, ill try my best.
but before i start. OMG IM SO FREAKING ASS RED LA. the tan line SUCKS LA. haha.. mm.lets see had stupid sex talk this morning. hmm. the stupid vid was damn annoying, and the rpesentor was honestly, DAMN SICK. oh my crap la.haha. then durint ct, lky was like asking me like what i thot about the video, so.. the only thing i could've thot of was. guy = jerk. well the one in the show at least.then she started going on about her opinions and how she actually feels that flirting is good for you, and how easy seduction is like what making a person feel special kinda thing. hahayeawatthecraplikesmthresonated. yea bloody hell. after that stoned at canteen.. was like so not hungry..no idea why.. then like after a while walk here and there passes amos the scores. and then go for games
first game got pangsehed.wth. of cos we played later cos they negotiated or smth, which iw as quite pissed over honestly.cos. of what happened later
of cos throughout the day, i was really like, damn useless la.haha. but the guys were super good, so we were wining all the way until like semis..hahaha.oh well.. tried our best. though i still felt horrible about the like blocking by accident, missing adn all that shit.
and of cos i meet some damn annoying idiots, one even made me lift up three fingers. not really high up la. just at my waist, if you dun get ti its ok, i guess i was just in a horribl mood today so all this just exacerbated all my annoyance, and so the three fingers went up.i really should stop being so vulgar.
but aiya.. i guess it was quite fun, only that i felt damn lousy. haha, and i din eat at all la. just drank like 2 cups of milo, 1 ribena bottle, and my cup of water, and now a large mash potato, and im nto finished with it and im full..shucks, im super screwed up.aha.
went home with sock, and like thanks sock from rescuing me from the motorbike, butsomehowiguessdyingsnotbad then like the stupid traffic lights at my house werent working, so i had to cross supercarefully, hmm.. iwishidiedtheretoo. and then now im home. ok yea, games were quite fun la...
hmm, but smth was tearing me up inside, so much so taht even with what sir said, i still couldnt cheer up.aha..oh bloody hell.
aiya wth la im so useless ive no idea why God lets me live.
and like im sorry, if you're super duper like angry at me and stuff, cos of all my moodswings and stuff. i guess i cant blame you cos i agree i dun make a hell lotta sense. and thats why i hate myself even more than i alr do. so i really wish you read this..but i just wanted to say im sorry, im so screwed up. please give me time to understand..
cos rite now i dun understand anything.
[em]ily_ 8:28 PM
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